I wish sometimes she would just shut up and let me have what I want without making me feel guilty about it. I’m talking about that inner voice, the one that puts a damper on everything.
All I wanted was some of those sugar crusted spice drops. I could just taste the sparkly sugar dissolving in my mouth… Or that buttered popcorn, dripping with golden deliciousness…
But then the voice. “You don’t need it.”
Fine. I don’t need it. But I definitely want it.
“Your body doesn’t need it. Let it go. Fill your hunger with something healthier.”
Now my choices are to heed or to ignore the voice. Either way I will live with a regret. Either momentary regret passing up something delightful to my senses, or lasting regret living with the effect it has in my body. I’d love to say I had the discipline and maturity to choose the latter each time, but I don’t. There’s a battle between my inner child and my inner adult, and it’s evident when you look at my body, that my inner adult doesn’t always win.
The same holds true in the spiritual world…
That gossip sure sounds enticing. Just the thought of staying abreast of people’s lives and being in the know… Or that computer game that I just might beat with a little more time…
“You don’t need it.”
Sure, I don’t need to do either. But I want to.
“Your spirit doesn’t need it. Let it go. Fill your time with something healthier.”
The choices remain the same: heed or ignore the voice. The consequences also remain the same. Momentary regret or lasting regret. I’d love to say that I had the spiritual maturity and discipline to win these battles, but just like in the physical world, I don’t. In fact, I find winning these battles harder because it’s way easier to live with a fat, sluggish spirit than it is to live with a fat, sluggish body. No one can see it so it’s easy to hide it and even live in denial.
Why not end the war and just do what I want? After all, it’s not a salvation issue.
Maybe not, but it’s definitely a health issue.
Being healthy provides a higher quality of life than being unhealthy. I feel better when I’m healthy. I can be more active when I’m healthy. I can better enjoy interactions with my family and friends when I’m healthy.
Again the same is true with my spirit. Being spiritually healthy provides a higher quality of spiritual life than being unhealthy. I feel better and can be more active for God when I’m spiritually healthy. I can have more fun following God’s lead as I interact with people when I’m spiritually healthy.
So… maybe I don’t want that inner voice to shut up after all.
1 Corinthians 10:23 Amplified Bible (AMP) All things are lawful [that is, morally legitimate, permissible], but not all things are beneficial or advantageous. All things are lawful, but not all things are constructive [to character] and edifying [to spiritual life].
1 Tim 4:7b Amplified Bible (AMP) … discipline yourself for the purpose of godliness (keeping yourself spiritually fit).
Romans 7:23 GOD’S WORD Translation (GW) I see a different standard at work throughout my body. It is at war with the standards my mind sets and tries to take me captive to sin’s standards which still exist throughout my body.