(If you haven’t read You Want to Be a What?, you may want to read that first to provide the context for this dialogue.)
God, we need to talk.
Did You send my friend over here today on purpose?
Is she right? That I need to release him to You before You can work in our lives?
Does that mean You’re planning something for both of us? Or is this just for him?
What do you mean?
If you take him to serve You, You have a plan for him.
Then what about me? I’m involved too.
Yes, you are.
I need You as much as he does.
Yes, you do.
I want Your perfect will for me as much as he does for him.
That’s nice to hear. But what are you really saying?
I don’t want to be left behind.
And I’m upset. You told me it was OK to go out with him. To talk to him. To let my feelings grow.
Yes, I remember that.
So why? Why tell me that just to take him from me?
Did you plan this to show me I can love again? If so, You could have shown me that when You gave me someone to keep.
Did you call him away to show me how much I love him? If so, You could have let me discover that on my own.
If this is to show him something, then that’s even worse because that’s using me. Downgrading me, like I’m not important. You love me and promised to take care of me. You can’t just use me like that.
If You’re doing this to push him in a different direction, then I want some definite guidance, too.
If You’re going to split us up, then I want a reason. It makes no sense to put us together, encourage us grow close, just to separate us. That’s mean, and You’re not mean so I can’t believe that’s what You are doing.
Whew. I was worried there for a minute.
Why are You doing this?
Do you trust Me? You’ve been saying you do. Do you really?
I’m thinking about it.
I’ll give you a moment.
Trust is hard but I believe You love us and want what’s best for us. So yes, I trust You.
Here’s another question: Do you really want My perfect will?
Definitely. You’ve already shown me many times that Your will is better than mine.
One more question. Will you really give Me everything?
I’ve already given You everything.
OK, not everything. Not him. You want him? He’s Yours.
Wait! Don’t take him just because I’m giving him to You.
Lord, here’s the bottom line. I will accept whatever You want for me – for us – with one condition: that I know it’s Your will. I don’t have to have a reason. I just need to know that it’s Your will and not our misguided decisions.
Are you finished? Is it My turn to talk?
I love you and want what’s best for you, just as I love him and want what’s best for him. Trust Me. Keep going out with him. He’s OK. It’s OK. You’re in my will.
Soooo… do You want him to be a priest?
Then what in the world is this all about? What do You want me to do?
Continue what you are doing. Listen to Me. Relax. I know what’s going on and I’m in control. I will take care of you. I’m on your side. Will you trust Me?
to be continued