A continuation of You Want to Be a What? and Wrestling with God (continued from You Want to be a What?)
They went on vacation with her family. A three week long vacation entailing well over 2,000 miles. Lots of miles with little to do than drive and talk. And sleep if you weren’t the one driving. Visiting relatives on both sides, answering questions… surely during this time God will make His plans clear for us, she thought. At least clarify things.
But she was wrong.
It just brought them closer. And yet, he kept talking about seminary.
So she came back from the trip just as confused as when she left.
She called on God again.
“Lord, we need to talk again,” she said.
“What do you want to know?”
“I want to know about him.
“I already told you that.”
“When will he know?”
“When it’s time.”
“Why do you speak in riddles? Why aren’t you more informative?”
“It’s better this way.”
Exasperated, she gave up and they changed the subject.
The next time she drove to his house, she asked him about their relationship.
“You help me a lot,” he said. “Like a soothing ointment on my pain.”
“You mean the pain after your previous girlfriend left you?”
“Yes, that pain.”
That made her feel good. But then she thought what will happen when he doesn’t need me anymore?
So she asked him. “Is that all?’
“Well, our relationship is completely different than any I’ve ever had before. It’s lively and refreshing and perfect.”
“But you’re still going to be a priest?”
“I don’t know. I think so. I’m going to spend some time at a seminary next month. I should know after that.”
God had told her to relax and enjoy her time with him. But how could she with this hanging over their heads – her head? She felt like something was going on and she was caught in the middle. He says he probably will be a priest, God says he’s not going to be a priest. Who should she believe? What she could see? Or what she couldn’t see? If only her emotions weren’t so caught up in this dilemma.
to be continued, again…